a white house, with blue shutters overlooking the lake...

I've just been in tears for the last hour after watching 'The Notebook' for all those cynics out there who think chick flicks are for girls and are a load of twaddle think on, because this one was glorious. It made me cry for sure, and you always know its a good one when you don't know why you are crying...if you are happy or sad or feel for the character or feel for yourself after seeing your own life reflected in the story. The fact that it can make you feel rew emotion and remind you that you are alive is the best bit about it.
Now, if you really are looking for a load of twaddle you've just read it. Haha. I don't think I can convey how the film made me feel. I don't think I need to, the mere fact that it made me feel anything is something, reminds me that I'm human and still very much alive.
Good night, I shall now go and dream that one day it should happen to me (minus the dementia bit) sleep well. Xx

the sun has got his hat on. :)

It's amazing the difference that a bit of sun can make! Today we all sat out in it in our break. Only for 20minutes, but it was glorious. The girls are fabulous and never fail to brighten my day and make me smile. I feel that I've just found my uni family that everyone talks about. Its great. I think that perhaps I spent too much time trying to fit in and fall in love. Now I know its not about that, its about enjoying my friends and my time with them having a laugh and creating memories that I can talk about for ages.
With a smile I bid you goodnight. Xx

I FEEL GOOD and i'm gunna blog about it. *hmph*

Im really happy, and so pleased with myself. I got on the scales today and I lost 8lbs 4oz!!! Thats over half a stone. I never thought I'd have to will power to do this. Turns out I do. :)

I am struggling with feeling worthy of other people at the moment. My confidence has been at an all time low and I try and explain it to people but they dont understand cause they see the front I can put on, the one where I joke and laugh and do stupid things. sadly they dont see what goes on in my head. But today I feel the littlest bit more confident and all because I can fit into a pair of jeans! I hope these little things that make a little difference keep coming.

xxx

Catharsis

Catharsis- A purging of emotion. See I do learn something in uni. :)

Today was a tying up of lose ends and spring cleaning of emotions. It seems that just being able to chat to someone can sort a lot of things out, can clear a head and put a smile on a face. Today has been a better day.

Here's to clean slates and furry things. x

p.s. One day I will write something interesting on a topic chosen for me by random facebookers. Today though, is not one of those days :P

sound of silence

Sometimes you just need to speak to someone. Then you realise it is midnight and all the sane people that would be kind enough to listen are asleep. I miss you.