Stavros' Hot Nuts.

Cyprus 2010 with the family.

Had an absolutely amazing time on holiday. Beautiful weather, beautiful scenery, with my beautiful family. Cyprus is so lovely. We did absolutely loads from snorkelling a secluded bay with clear blue waters to visiting a monestary dripping in gold. Most notably the best day we had was perilously driving up the Troodos mountains in our clapped out rental car, nearly dying in order to visit a non existant traditional cyprian village. It sounds disasterous and it would have been if we hadnt have wound up finding some quaint road side stalls and tourist shops selling the funniest things...Stavros's Hot Nuts and Sex Toys, used sex toys to be exact, mind you there was only one pack, it was opened and one was missing...probably the best one. The cheek of it was that they were trying to sell them for 100 euros. UMMM, NO. Anyway it kept me and sally entertained for absolutely ages.
Other stuff we did included, wave jumping in the sea, visiting a turtle hatching center, watching one of those elvis impersonater shows (was actually bloody entertaining) and drinking fabulously crude named cocktails "sex behind the bar" was my partcular favourite. "i'll have sex behind the bar please. :)
The views were to die for
Got a tan...yesyes, i was determined to do this, and I did. However its a not so sexy peely, patchy one as i got burnt to a crisp the first day we got there...other than that it all goood.

On returning home I ended up singing with Upton Fusion at the Jazz festival. It was fun and such good weather to come home to. Sat by the river most of the day drinking cider and enjoying the company, sun and music. A beautiful day again. And so that was my last week. :) This blog proobably doesnt make alot of sense as i have tried to write alot all at once and have not followed what ive been writing...

ciao for now. xx

holiday (sung madonna stylee)

going on holiday tomorrow. should be bloody good :)

Goggles.

Went lane swimming tonight...am knackered and my eye could do with a good gouging out and a soak in lovely mineral enriched cold spring water overnight to get rid of the redness and pain.

Also tonight I said "no" to someone that normally I give into. It was empowering although im sure I will regret it eventually. Hey ho, someone had to say no to him and this rediculousness had to stop. I wasnt about to be used anymore.:)

Holiday in 3 days. quite excited. However I am already peeling from previous sun burn...so it should be interesting. anyways night night. xxxx

I miss marching...

I have only just realised that it was 37th Kingswoods first comp today...I miss marching, I especially miss marching with two of my most valued friends... Hope you did well, all of you. xx

A man in uniform.

Spent a lovely day at Throckmorton Air Show in aid of Help the Heroes. I thought I was gunna hate it but it was good...and lots of lovely men in uniform ;).
Also went out last night with the FABULOUS Kay Odell and Lorna Taha. Was a laugh even though I had to get up at 7 the next morning to be at work...nearly died. Anyways im tired so this is a pretty poor entry. haha. night night. xx

I "believe" i'm feeling a little lonely

Wow, what a week its been. Stressed to the max and its not even me moving out, its my bosses. haha.
Feeling quite lonely recently. Dont know why. Im not really alone ever. I have my family and there are still some friends around that I get to see...Its odd. I think its possibly because I dont belong. I have no one to belong to, no single person, no single group of friends that I can be at one with. I met up with a friend I had lost touch with in the week and there was a glimmer of belonging when I spent time with him. I felt I was with someone who cared...it was nice. But it only lasted a few hours and I cant go tell him about my complicated thinkings haha. Right now I cant wait to get back to uni, to have something to focus on and to be constantly surrounded by people. I used to long for solitude now all I want is hustle and bustle, and people.

On an upper, I got an A in my Production and Meaning module. Best grade so far this year :) I am proud of myself. I was so worried when I started uni that I wouldnt want to kee up. I just needed to believe I guess.

And on that note. I want a tattoo. "Believe" in a nice cursive script on my foot somewhere. (good link to the last paragraph dont you think?) This is a big step for me. Im not the type that takes risks and a tattoo is a risk. Its on me forever. I want it to remind me to always believe in myself and what others think of me and tell me. Its something mum and dad always tell me to do. :) Still playing it a little safe tho cause it will be on my foot where I can cover it up when Im an old saggy lady and its nothing big. haha

Right, im off. Ive gone mega tired all of a sudden and I have a busy weekend ahead of me. SIGH! night y'all. xx

I am broken.

OOOOOUCH. TOO MUCH DANCING...CANT MOVE WITHOUT PAIN. That is all...
...oh and Lion Man STILL hasnt come. x

It's quiet in a room that always smiled...

I only write songs and poems and such when I feel the urge...tonight was one of these rare moments. I dont claim to be any good at it by any means. so judge away.
I have been thinking about this last year a lot with eveyone leaving and moving on and so came this.... It is a poem written for someone I grew close to in a shot period of time, someone I shared my life and dreams with briefly. For reasons and actions that can only ever be truly understood by that person, things didnt work out. I still hold true to my belief that were we still in one anothers lives today, things could have been awesome...

For Flump

It’s quiet in a room that always smiled
with a grin a landscape wide.
A landscape waiting to be explored,
passions shared.
Gorged on dreams and takeaway
a beanbag boasts as lumber,
whilst we sit and wait for the efforts of our fantasies
to depreciate in slumber.
A neon sign heads the way to a fold out couch,
worn and used, a sure sign of danger,
a sagging, sorry mattress fit for a stranger.
Take heed.

But a hand. Yours,
is the smell of new cut grass, a cup of tea,
fresh crisp bed sheets, beams of sun light catching the glass.
Comfort.

Then I am past. Like time.

Blinded, I walked straight in, no fear.
Seeing, I stumbled out.
The couch still waits folded in,
more skin will come, smoother than the last.
But how many will champion the wants and dreams,
partner aspirations of a landscape wide and waiting?

Reverberating.
It’s quiet in a room that always smiled.

two for you tonight.

Am feeling a little blue aside of all my ebay purchasing...everyone at uni has somewhere to run to, a place they can go called home when they need to escape. I'm always here, home is here and everyone has run away to their safe place. I would quite like a hug, but youve all gone... :(
xx

EBAYYY. I LOVE YOU.

One feels one has succeeded in life when one has managed to get some proper bargains off ebay...

All started t'other day when me and mother were in Boots, makeup counter girl comes up to me "hi, have you ever heard of Benefit make-up?" "no" I lied...(first big mistake right there) "Oh, well come over here and I will give you a free make-over with Benefit products." "O.K." says I....SECOND MISTAKE.
So I follow the woman rather tenuously back to the counter...It was a long way back through a maze of aisles, she must have seen me walk in the shop and thought "now theres someone who looks rough and could do with a bit'o'slap"...anyways, get to the counter, have all this loverly makeup put on me and shes all like " which ones would you consider buying" I pick out the two cheapest (or what i think will be the cheapest) items..."how much would that cost?" I ask, thinking, "ohhh, maybe a tenner at most"....FOURTY SIX QUID FOR TWO THINGS...me thinks not...

I go home feeling a little disheartened....here i was all ready to buy this amazing makeup, that didnt make me look half bad...and then I cant afford it.

*light bulb moment* I shall EBAY it!

I did and Ive now won 3 items which should have come to about £65 for about £30, I am genious.

Maybe not so genious as if i had just have had the balls to say no to the lovely sales woman in the shop, then I wouldnt have just spent £30 on makeup...Damn, those "oh ive just come back from Ibiza and this is a natural tan, honest" sales girls!


p.s. on a lighter note....LION MAN COMES TOMORROW! :D

Today I won the Lion Man.

TODAY I WON THE LION MAN. that is all...

In the depths of southern africa the big cats they will come...

Joined a Glee club not so long ago. Its good old fun, but bloody hell its hard work. Went tonight, was whipped into shape. The dancing is soo complicated... I can hardly breathe once ive done half of the dance, let alone do the whole thing AND sing! It just proves how unfit I am.
I really dont have much to write at the moment. Im just working most of the week and then trying to catch up on sleep. HOW BORING AM I? yes I know!
Highlight of the week so far??? Bidding on "The Lion Man" dvd. I was seriously distraught when I went to uni, started singing the theme tune and everyone looked at me like I could have done with sectioning. Yes, if you do not watch lion man you may think that someone singing a song about lions and a man saving them with such passion is a bit wierd, but you have to admit, its catchy! Dad and me have been walking around the house singing it for aaaaaaaages. In the depths of southern africa the big cats they will come...delivered from extinction to their new life in the sun...
*please note this must be sang with an african/kiwi twang for maximum impact and catchiness.*
Anyway...finally found some others that appreciated my love for the Lion Man...and was informed there was a DVD. well... it had to be done...I EBAYED it! yesyes, im now the top bidder at 99p on Lion Man Season 1. My life shall only be complete when I win it and it arrives! pahhaha.
I plan on wasting a day of my life watching it back to back...and who knows I might push the boat out buy the other 2 seasons!
HES THE LION MAN, DOING ALL HE CAN TO CREATE A SANCTUARY AND A HOME!