Ok. So I've been looking at other peoples blogs and I really like the whole idea of blogging to vent emotions and such like.Im fed up of having a whinge at my mates and them (bless them) being kind enough to pretend they care. So I have, by some miracle, managed to set up my own blogspot (im practically computer illiterate.) I don't by any means expect anyone to read it, it's just a place for me to put down everything and anything I want that is happening with me.
So whats going on with me at the mo? Well Im a little bit scared that I'm not gunna get everything for uni done in time. I have no motivation at the moment. This worries me as I'm only in my first year, what will I be like in 2? I'm pooping my pants over LoCo (musical theatre society) I've got a major part in the current production of Zombie Prom and everyone else is so good at it all. I really stuggle to keep my head above the water and pretend I know what I'm doing. There were others that really wanted my part and probably deserved it. I never thought I would get it when I auditioned. And I worry I'm going to be a let down.
Also I am currently on a diet. This means eating bugger all that actually makes me happy and then lying to myself every week when I step on the scales telling myself "ooo, look youve lost half a pound, that good." Actually its crap. When I actually thought about it half a pound is really only 2 McDonalds quater pounder cheese burgers...in all honesty I would rather eat them than subject myself to museli, no points vegetable soup and weight watchers bread "only one point a slice none-the-less" (mother, May 2010) -it is only that low in calories because they've sliced it as thin as is humanly possible. Why AM I dieting?
While I'm on the war path. MEN. Why are you hiding from me...well you good ones anyway. I would love nothing more than to get home at night and snuggle up with a guy who just wants to hold me. I'm not one of these girls who go out in search of a bloke for a quick shag...There has been one of those guys that I would meet up with regularly and "do it like they do on the discovery channel" with, but I soon fell for him and ended up looking the fool. So now I'm on the look out for a decent bloke. One that is happy to take things as they come, go with the flow.
Apparently they don't exist. In the words of John Mayer "I'm tired of being alone, so hurry up and get here."
Right you lovely lot, it's time for bed. I've got a sore throat coming and I really dont have time to be ill. Muchos Love. x
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