Wow, what a week its been. Stressed to the max and its not even me moving out, its my bosses. haha.
Feeling quite lonely recently. Dont know why. Im not really alone ever. I have my family and there are still some friends around that I get to see...Its odd. I think its possibly because I dont belong. I have no one to belong to, no single person, no single group of friends that I can be at one with. I met up with a friend I had lost touch with in the week and there was a glimmer of belonging when I spent time with him. I felt I was with someone who cared...it was nice. But it only lasted a few hours and I cant go tell him about my complicated thinkings haha. Right now I cant wait to get back to uni, to have something to focus on and to be constantly surrounded by people. I used to long for solitude now all I want is hustle and bustle, and people.
On an upper, I got an A in my Production and Meaning module. Best grade so far this year :) I am proud of myself. I was so worried when I started uni that I wouldnt want to kee up. I just needed to believe I guess.
And on that note. I want a tattoo. "Believe" in a nice cursive script on my foot somewhere. (good link to the last paragraph dont you think?) This is a big step for me. Im not the type that takes risks and a tattoo is a risk. Its on me forever. I want it to remind me to always believe in myself and what others think of me and tell me. Its something mum and dad always tell me to do. :) Still playing it a little safe tho cause it will be on my foot where I can cover it up when Im an old saggy lady and its nothing big. haha
Right, im off. Ive gone mega tired all of a sudden and I have a busy weekend ahead of me. SIGH! night y'all. xx
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