cliques or clicks.

I find it hard at uni. I dont belong to one group or another. I kinda of drift between several. Its nice that I can get on with everyone I just wish everyone else was the same. I struggle not to judge others by their cliquiness and their unwilling to let people in. Im sure I am guilty of it some times but I am aware of others and a need to talk with others and get to know them. I feel I need to get to know the freshers more. I wasnt in LoCo last semester for the Panto and missed out on getting aquainted with them. God knows what they must think of me. I want to know them and them know moi. I am a little worried by a friends observations about said cliquiness and hope I do not fall into the bracket of people described. I deliberately try not to.

Its the auditions on Friday, I am not very familiar with the play as I wasnt able to go to the read through but looking at the chatacter list I am liking the look of Madame Lola- a fiesty french madame whos a big softy really. Im nervous about the auditions, I couldnt respect the people on the panel more, each one of them are really talented and so lovely. I'm most nervous about auditioning infront of one of the panel as I look up to him. It's funny cause I read his blog and it inspires me, yet he always writes about his knocked confidence with LoCo with non drama students getting better parts than him. He's silly. I think he's bloody brilliant and has the most amazing attitude towards life. I shouldnt admit it but I always look forward to reading his blogs. They generally put a smile on my face and encourage me to do better. I hope I can give a good audition.

Seemingly last night I was invited around to the girls house "House of Skirt" and it was lovely, I felt part of it and there wasnt any strain to blend in or be part of the action. Just a lovely relaxed night with lots of giggles.

Im going to get an early night, I'm really feeling the strain of work and uni running alongside one another at the mo.

For now goodnight, sleep tight, dont let the bed bugs bite. xx